A somewhat calming...

I'm a little bit relaxed after that...a bit calmer after chatting with April and Sarah. Internal spackle is repairing the cracks in me, building me back up again. Another setback, another boulder hurled at me, but I'm still standing. Another option presented itself tonight. I'm not out yet, and I'm feeling better. Also the fact that the Red Sox won just now, taking a 2-0 series lead makes me happy. Game 3 Tuesday night.

Weekend recap to come later. In the meantime, I'm on the mend.

Go away!

I swear, I feel at times God has it in for me. I just can't help feeling that financial peril loves me, hangs over me like a cloud I can't shake. My weekend was great...and now, of course, it ends on a very, very shitty note. Why do I begin my LJ post with this? Because I find myself pissed, for this:

My grandma, with excellent credit, was denied as a co-borrower for my private loan. Why, you ask? She doesn't make enough monthly income, according to Sallie Mae. SHE'S RETIRED, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!!! So...apparently I have to find a credit-worthy co-borrower that works, which might mean I have to dip into that section of my family that I hate.

Grr...why? Why is it so fucking hard? I'm about ready to throw this laptop out the window. I want to hurt someone...I want to break shit. I mean...this is getting ridiculous. What makes me more pissed is the fact that when I talked to the representative from Sallie Mae, I specifically asked if the co-borrower needed a minimum monthly income to qualify, and she told me no, that all they'll do is run a credit check on her to see if she has good credit. Apparently, I was bullshitted. And...and...I can hardly type, I'm so mad...as is my grandmother.

I need to calm down...