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And so, once again, I'm crying as I type this. I feel as if everything seems to be crumbling at once, everything breaking down. As I told my parents, finally, that I'm leaving MCLA for good, and taking the spring off, I started crying. Again. Mom's sad, and she has no idea what I'm doing right now.

I feel like a failure. Again.

I want to go. I want to get out of here. I've had it. Right now, I could care less about college. Right now, I don't care if I ever return to school. I'll just start saving money and work towards an apartment in NP with April.

Fuck college with a big, rubber dick.

Yes, I'm bitter, yes, I'm cynical, yes, I'm totally disillusioned with college altogether. Deal with it.

Right now, I want to be alone.

The mating of two pillows.

Usually by this time on a Thursday night, Friday morning, what have you, I'm sleeping peacefully with April by my side. For the first time in 3 weeks, we're not with each other. It makes me feel a bit strange, a bit weird. I don't like it. Yet, I better once again get used to it--after January 2nd, the next time I'll see her will be sometime late February. I won't be 120 miles away from her, as I am now. I'll once again be 300 miles away, and right now, that's the only thing still nagging me about me going home--I've basically put out all of the negative consequences, and it always comes back to that--she and I have become very close physically, mentally, spiritually over the last few months, and just when things seemed to be getting all right, life happens. Oh, well.

So I'll end my mush here for now.

Anyway, after getting less than 6 hours of sleep, didn't want to go to my classes at all. But I did, and once again, more squiggly lines and maybe some aloft winds graced today's Weather and Climate class. Shortly after, I went to work, and it was a busy five hours. I was scaring the new people with my random sound affects, bike horn communing, and overall caffeine-induced insanity that only comes when I come into contact with the elixir. Got paid, and after work, deposited my check, got back here, where Kaz fed me--we went down to the kitchen and we had ramen and rice with seaweed. Quite yummy, actually. He actually complemented me on my Ramen making. I made a new friend tonight--John's friend, Tara, who seems to be quite a charming person. We were up here for a while, Xavi, Brandon, and I gaming, and then more gaming, and I talked to April for a while. After, I joined the rest of the suite who seemed to gather with John and I in Tara's room and Brandon, Xavi, J.P., and Jay in Meghan's room. 6 of 9 were down there--only Kaz, Ian, and Doug remained. John and I came back up here and we played some Mario Party before he realized he had homework to do. I came back here, and played some of LotR: Third Age, shaping up to be a fine game.

More possible enemies were added to the list. Thanks to Chaos for adding, as well as Kaz and John. Keep it up. Now, as I said, this is in the planning stage. Feel free to add your own suggestions.

( Updated list of possible villains )