Leave it to reality to reverse my mood.

[a_bit_of_wit_2]

Today's started out good...then reality once again decks me in the face. I had a chat with my stepdad today...one that money matters. As I find out, the money I gave him last week for his taxes went to bills. So now that's $400 gone to bills. Pissed? Yes. However, reality came screaming at me. It was either that or we don't eat. I hate being a major source of income. I'm not ready for it yet. So, as I talked to my stepdad, we talked about the options I could take with regards to continuing college:

1) My stepdad does his taxes, I fill out the FAFSA, apply for student loans, hope that I can afford to pay anything out of pocket.

2) Take out a private loan that covers my expenses for the year. I sort of not want to do that, for that's adding a $14,000 loan to my credit.

3) Defer enrollment to MCLA until the spring, or even possibly next year. I don't want to do that because then I have to start paying back student loans. However, if I have to take time off so I can work, gather momentum, then I will do it.

4) Worst case scenario: not go back to college.

Ehh...it's gonna be a challenge to see how I can get to MCLA. But...I'm feeling a little better. I'll be back to my normal self shortly. Thursday, I'm going to get my stepdad to make an appointment.

I feel a smile returning to my face now...as I beat reality back into submission. (grins)